Acceptance

I'm learning the art of acceptance.  Let me rephrase; Jesus is trying to teach me the art of acceptance - and I am (although seemingly fighting Him tooth and nail) learning. 

For as long as I can remember, I've wanted more.  Dreams have always been more than just remote fantasies to me, although they occupy my free time and my "fun thoughts" they have always driven me to be something . . . more.  Everyday, I wake up with anticipation for what the day will bring - where my Jesus will take me, what interesting people I may meet, what conversations I might be lead to.  It always makes me a little antsy and excited!

My mom has always been a "doer" I only have a few memories of her ever sitting quietly . . . although those memories are all filled with her reading or praying.  See, even when she just sat, she was doing something.  Even though I know we're different people, I realize more and more each day how like my mother I am.  I'm happy to become more like her; she is such a wise woman and my later statements should not reflect her busy-ness in any negative way, they are my own short-comings.  Now that my career seems to be establishing itself nicely and I am doing what I love to do, it seems that my focus is shifting to the other parts of my life that are not as complete.

In these few moments, these brief fragments of realization, I think about what I'm doing.  I mean really, what am I doing? Am I enjoying the wonderful gifts that God has given me with the opportunity to work with these boys? Or, am I checking this off the "to do" list and moving on? Please don't misunderstand me, I am utterly thankful for where I am and have expressed that vehemently . . . it's just . . . am I living in the joy or am I budgeting time to enjoy this season of my life in my downtime from fretting over everything else.

This will remain brief but just a note (really for myself but maybe to contribute to your life as well) . . . . are you thoroughly enjoying your life? Where you are right now? And not necessarily where you will be if you get the job, the promotion, that wonderful soulmate walks into your life, or the kids finally start behaving . . . . are you enjoying where you are right now? Take time for the joy, learn to accept :-)